Woodcut

I looked across the restaurant and was shocked to see an older image of myself.

I grew angry, afraid, both certain and uncertain of myself.

There, before me, was my future staring back at me out of the past.

I watched myself hurriedly finish my meal and take my wife with me quickly out of the place.

I am not a meadowlark but I watch one cleaning its feathers on a birdfeeder in the woods. It flies away.

I sit here, exchanging sunlight reflections with birds and other living things tuned to states of energy flowing from a glowing, hot ball of fire.

My species is clamouring for my attention in more ways and manners (and unmannerly ways) than I care to count.

Thela hun ginjeet, I say, or some such. They repeat themselves when under stress - they repeat.

Few people know what I've done and what I'm capable of. It's what it is. I repeat.

When an overzealous reporter makes news out of nothing, I've concluded I have nothing to say.

That's the problem with having been a reporter, having had your own fan club and having negotiated backroom deals ...

... once you've done most of what your species is capable of, including ruling your species, and you're not changing into an entity with more choices ...

... sigh ... taking long naps and meditating are about all you've got left to entertain yourself.

That's the secret of the guru life.

Staying hidden in plain view.

Kind of like the ETSU football program - undefeated and unscored upon since 2003.

My ego has gotten the better part of me lately and I publicly apologise to myself one more time for my arrogance. I'm not here to sell myself or anything to do with discrete personalities.

All is all.

I have nothing worthwhile to say about what I know is really what life is all about. It would fill a dot at the end of this sentence. What I don't know is the rest of what we call life.

Today, I'm tired of reacting to other people's agendas. The real story of the universe is not for sale or designed for our consumption. Time for me to disappear temporarily. Time for a nap.